Resolution List 2010

Without fail, every year, I make a list of resolutions...even while resigning myself to not keeping them. I think it's more of a comfort thing. January 1st has that kind of refreshing quality that separates it from other dates. That heady feeling of a new beginning, with the past year already a closed chapter. Done. Over. Now, a new year, new goals, new hopes, a new start.

SO!

Resolution #1: Don't stress over things I can't control

Type A personalities rule in the world of health professionals...or so I'm told. I don't think I'm a Type A personality at all....except when it comes to being in control of my life (Type A???!). But seriously, I'm a huge planner and for those of you who know me well, I have the next 4-5 years of my life, pretty explicitly planned out. Everything that doesn't follow my Plan (with a capital P because it's that important) become "obstacles" hence cause me immeasurable stress and headaches. I'm not really sure how I'm going to carry out this resolution....stress isn't something I could turn on and off by choice.... I guess all I can do is work on actively letting things go, and perpetually calming myself down. I say perpetually because things don't go according to my Plan pretty much all the time. ;)

Resolution #2: Being a better communicator

I lost my phone for the first time a couple of weeks ago so I had to make one of those fb events that asked for phone numbers. The only good thing that came out of this ordeal was that I got a chance to reconnect with people that I haven't spoken to in a really long time. And let me tell you, there were a lot of them. In fact, it was the great majority. Every time I got a new text/message/e-mail from an old friend, I was hit with a strange mix of emotions; that excitement that only comes from seeing someone you haven't seen in a long time, a wave of affection for long-time friends, random memories shared together, sadness about losing touch, tinged with guilt for not trying harder.

This blog is a part of my resolution. As we get older, I realize just how far we've reached out into the world geographically from New York. This is also the year that I'll be traveling on clinical rotations and won't be in St. Louis for the majority of the year. I hope this becomes a way for us to keep updated on each others' lives across time zones and oceans.

That's it! Only 2 resolutions, but I'm determined to keep them....no silly resolutions about not eating dessert (we all know how long that one's going to last) or studying more (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA). I hope these two will make me a better person and help keep my sanity.

Happy New Year! This is the year of the white tiger...it comes around every 60 years. Hope it brings great peace and prosperity to all~